5 weeks, 2 days
This is
all so surreal. We’ve wanted kids since the day we got married, and it is just
crazy to think that in 8 months, we will have a precious little baby! <3
We
planned for this. But when you see that second pink line on the stick, the
feelings that run through your body are insane. Even when it’s planned, you are
never fully prepared.
I thought
I was pregnant and I went CRAZY testing and analyzing every symptom! Cody knew
it was a possibility that I was pregnant. But he also knew that this was our
first month trying to conceive, so that I could possibly be making up symptoms
in my head. I thought this too, and I tried not to get my hopes up.
But I
could not ignore my chart.
The chart
was a perfect pregnancy chart. I even got one “question mark” of a test. The
day after ovulation, I just had the weirdest cramps, and they continued for a
week, along with nausea, and then my temperature dipped, signifying
implantation. I tested two days later and got a second line, but it was facing
the wrong way! So I disregarded it as a faulty test, which was annoying because those tests are obnoxiously expensive. I tested the next day and
got a “positive” but it was so faint that I disregarded it as an evaporation
line.
Oliver
became very snuggly (even more so than usual). Instead of laying by my head as
usual, he started laying by my side with his head and one paw on my lower
stomach. I figured I was reading into things too much.
And then
my symptoms stopped…and my temperature raised to a triphasic chart! I figured
it was because of my head cold. I continued testing, which was entirely too
early to test, and they were all negative, of course. I figured my worst fear had come
true and that I had had a chemical pregnancy (a miscarriage that happens before
miss your period- 25% of pregnancies
end up being chemical pregnancies). I tested the day I was supposed to get my period,
but it was still negative…so I happily went off to the wine festival with my
hubby and two friends, excited for wine, but depressed by my fear of a
miscarriage, all the while expecting my period to show up. I even cried on the
way there because I was so terrified that I had a chemical pregnancy! One month of trying to conceive, and it was already a roller coaster ride!
And
then…something weird happened. My period didn’t show up, which had never, ever happened. I tested the next
day…and sure enough, it was positive! It was faint, but a line is a line! Cody
still couldn’t believe it, so I took a digital test. I screamed and texted him
a picture while he was at work, and he could not deny the word “pregnant” was
the screen.
I was 4
weeks and 4 days when I officially found out. We told our family members and
best friends over the next couple of days, and then decided to wait at least
until the end of May to share with everyone else, since that chances of a
miscarriage are SO much higher in the first trimester. Baby Soltow is due on
January 1st, 2013. <3
I guess
that bottle of delicious chocolate white wine that we bought at the wine
festival will be sitting on the shelf for a while. Maybe Baby Soltow will come
a few days early so we can celebrate the New Year with it. ;)
I’m so
nervous and excited! I found out literally the day after we conceived that I
would be losing my job due to situations outside of my control. You can imagine
how I felt knowing that I could very well be pregnant. Cody and I just feel
like God has surrounded us and that we are totally in His will, because
otherwise we wouldn’t have conceived on the first try! I feel so blessed right
now. <3
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